Gladly I Will Suffer These Things, Unashamed

It has only been the last few years that I have made "New Year's resolutions" for myself.  It started two years ago when I Resolved to Resolve.  Then last year to Grow Deeper, Richer, Fuller.  Before that I was unimpressed with the concept.  The premise faulty, the promise flippant, the proposition trite.  Maybe not always, but far too often, anyway. Long ago I determined that's not for me.  Then I acquired Jonathan Edwards' resolutions.  I liked what I saw, and what I read.  He was a man who sought to stay true to what he believed, and used his resolutions toward that end.  Not only that, but they were also continuous.  They didn't end at year's end, but were to the end of his life from that day forward.  Which brings me to my last point: They didn't necessarily have to start at the commencing of a new year; they were established the day he finished contemplating them.  And I realized I really liked that.  So far, I've been establishing my own around the beginning of the year, and this year is no exception, or so it seems... But, you know, there's always tomorrow for me to recognize something else needs changing!  The type of tomorrow that actually becomes today, that is.

So that leads me to what I've been thinking in the here and now.  I also like the idea of a clean slate at the new year's arrival, although any day is a good day to start anew technically.  So I've been considering how I'd like to kick-start the new year...  Then Pastor gave a fabulous message this morning.  For some background, our theme for this year, 2011, is Striving Together (part 2, if you will, of last year's theme Choosing God First).  This morning's sermon was based on Philippians 1:27, the context from verses 1-30.  We considered many things, one specifically being the word conversation, this specific Greek word appearing only one other time.  It was all quite fascinating!  Being one to always contemplate how to apply the truths of Scripture in my own life, that was also something I was considering throughout the message as well.

Well, the message hit its mark.  Most of the things I had been considering were rather general things, until the conclusion that is.  Really, it was a connection I had made of what my life needed to better become more like Christ, but it was just the chord that needed to be touched.  Something the Apostle Paul had down pat.

The invitation wasn't long in coming after that, and the invitational hymn was Close to Thee.  It's a beautiful song, a favorite of mine.  Solemn & sincere, and so very, very heartfelt.  There's always something that catches my heart when I sing it, this time it was a line from the second stanza that stood out, the second line to be precise.  Even before that verse, I had wanted to go forward, but I couldn't leave my duties with the sound system to go to the altar.  I knew something else, though, besides the need to take care of these things humbly before my Lord.  My heart could take a moment to pause in prayer, even if I couldn't leave my station.  And when I had finished, then I thought on what the song must have meant to the composer and what it had meant in her own life.

At the same time that all those thoughts were swirling around in my head, I knew exactly what my new resolve would be.  Interestingly enough, one of the verses of Scripture I think of when I consider this topic had become a cherished favorite last year, but I want to fully embrace it starting today.  "For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day." (II Timothy 1:12)  And that leads me to the conclusion, my resolve:

Willingly suffering for Christ.

Oh, sure, in some way or another I've suffered for Him before.  Maybe not to great extents, but suffering in one way or another.  But lately, it hasn't been all that willingly.  Any recent suffering, I've "suffered" through it all right... but not with the right attitude.  Not as Jesus Christ would have me to suffer - willingly and meekly... for Him - and yet, that's the very attitude I should have had all along.

So, lastly, I'd like to close with the special hymn of invitation that continues to touch my heart's chords.

Close to Thee
 Fanny J. Crosby

Thou my everlasting Portion, more than friend or life to me,
All along my pilgrim journey, Savior, let me walk with Thee.
Close to Thee, close to Thee, close to Thee, close to Thee,
All along my pilgrim journey, Savior, let me walk with Thee.

Not for ease or worldly pleasure, nor for fame my prayer shall be;
Gladly will I toil and suffer, only let me walk with Thee.
Close to Thee, close to Thee, close to Thee, close to Thee,
Gladly will I toil and suffer, only let me walk with Thee.

Lead me through the vale of shadows, bear me over life’s fitful sea;
Then the gate of life eternal may I enter, Lord, with Thee.
Close to Thee, close to Thee, close to Thee, close to Thee,
Then the gate of life eternal may I enter, Lord, with Thee.

Growing Deeper, Richer, Fuller

This whole month I have been thinking a great deal on this past year and this new year. So much happened in such a short amount of time ... and now the cycle has begun again. But before I start with some thoughts on this year, a few moments of reflection would be nice.

At the beginning of last year, after reading The Resolutions of Jonathan Edwards, I came to the conclusion that resolutions are a very fine thing if they are done in God's power and not our own, much like Mr. Edwards says in his preface: "Being sensible that I am unable to do anything without God's help, I do humbly entreat Him by His grace to enable me to keep these resolutions, so far as they are agreeable to His will for Christ's sake." So, for the first time in a very long time, I resolved to resolve. It was indeed by God's grace that He allowed me to stand as firmly as I did. I know that I haven't been perfect; in fact, there were times I failed. Thankfully, that's not how our Lord looks at us. That is to say, that He isn't waiting and watching to see how often we fail so that He can then say "I'm done with you." No, instead, when we fall He will pick us up (if we let Him), say that we are forgiven, remind us His grace is sufficient, then let us carry on with Himself walking beside us once again. And that's what He did for me. I know that, in my own power, I could never be as true to Him as I'd like to be, that's why He tells us to come to Him. And in looking backwards, His promises were true throughout the year, He drew me closer to Him, allowing me to grow closer into His image.

Well, now for the year ahead.... Resolutions one the first day of the year are nice, but there is another thing I like about Mr. Edwards' resolutions: they weren't necessarily written on the first of the year, for the duration of that year, and then it was okay to quit. No, Mr. Edwards' resolutions were from that point - that day, whichever day that might have been - from then until the end of his life. And I truly think that's a God-honoring way to live our life. Spiritually we should never quit striving for something, because on this earth we can never fully attain.

So, at this moment, this last day of the month, dated January 31, 2010, I shall add onto the list as found in II Timothy 2:15 & I Peter 3:15, "Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:" This year and in the years to come, but especially this year because it's an area that needs strengthening, it is my goal to dig deeply into the Word of God. Not because I've neglected reading His Word because there are studies I'm involved in, but my own personal study needs to be deeper, richer, fuller. For myself, yes, very much so! Because for as much as I grew closer to my Lord, I yearn to grow closer still to the One who loved me first. And also that I may be able to further tell others about the Lord Jesus and to be able to answer any questions they might have about spiritual needs.

And just like I saw in the year past, I know I will see that my Lord - all that He is, all that He has said and promised - is again true in the year ahead.

I Resolve to Resolve

The new year is a wonderful time to reflect. There are other good times for that, of course, but with a fresh year ahead it can give a different outlook.

So with a clean slate before us, so to speak, I think of Romans 12:1-2. "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God,which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

I haven't been one to make New Year's resolutions in the past because many of the examples I've heard were made so flippantly, and there seem to be so few taken seriously that the resolution isn't kept. Perhaps, that's because in our own strength, we simply fall short like an arrow dropping before the target. Recently I've acquired The Resolutions of Jonathan Edwards, who was one of the well-known evangelists of the 18th century. The key resolution, written as a preface to the 70 resolutions to follow, is this: "Being sensible that I am unable to do anything without God's help, I do humbly entreat Him by His grace to enable me to keep these resolutions, so far as they are agreeable to His will for Christ's sake." With Mr. Edwards quote in mind, I have one goal for the coming year for which I'll strive for more than previous years. My resolution, my goal for 2009 is Romans 1:16 & Philippians 1:20. "For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek. According to my earnest expectation and my hope, that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but that with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether it be by life, or by death.

Looking back at the entries of this past year, I realized that most included a song. For the start of this new year, I am going to and yet another one. One that accurately reflects the verses on my heart today, of proclaiming Christ's love, growing closer to Him, and looking for His coming.

I'll Tell the World

Baynard L. Fox

I’ll tell the world, that I’m a Christian;

I’m not ashamed, His name to bear.

I’ll tell the world, that I’m a Christian;

I’ll take Him with me anywhere.

I’ll tell the world, how Jesus saved me,

And how He gave me a life brand new;

And I know that if you trust Him

That all He gave me, He’ll give to you.

I’ll tell the world, that He’s my Saviour;

No other one, could love me so.

My life, my all is His forever,

And where He leads me I will go.

I'll tell the world that He is coming;

It may be near or far away.

But we must live as if His coming

Would be tomorrow or today.

For when He comes, and life is over,

For those who love Him there’s more to be;

Eyes have never seen the wonders

That He’s preparing, for you and me.

O tell the world, that you’re a Christian;

Be not ashamed, His name to bear.

O tell the world, that you’re a Christian,

And take Him with you everywhere.